Healing Process of Acceptance of Feelings!

 Life has been hard for many of us during this period of Lockdown and everything going on around us. Every one of us had some plans, dreams to be achieved but after such sudden incidents, everything went up and down. Many of us felt so frustration and anger that after a point we stopped feeling things, we made ourselves numb so that we can't feel the pain, anger, frustration of living the same routine of helplessness again and again and again.

But then one day we thought that now we are calm and more accepting towards the situation and we try to feel again after a long period of being a numb person and now that we are ready we are given a choice to be happy to go person again you were before this or be the person world always wants you to become. To be like them and forget about dreams and kindness and now you daily have a choice to make what you want to feel.

Below are the Feelings I felt after such situations and what I felt and chosen to believe in. ( Extracted from my dairy )

    I am healing, becoming more aware of my emotions. I let myself feel every emotion now Happiness, Excitement, Frustration sadness because they all need to be felt for me to become the best version of me. It heals me every single day but there is something I don't want my future version to lose, It is my values, my beliefs, the choices I make. I am proud of myself to choose kindness and love every single day over any other emotions. Every day when I wake up I have a choice to make and every day I choose to believe in kindness, in love which I know is present in this world in everything. Some days are hard and some voices in me say to give up on kindness and love and be the bad person and show the world I am not foolish but I am thankful for that one strong voice in my head and heart which stops me and drags me back when I am at the verge of almost becoming a hateful and selfish person. The voice tells me choosing love and kindness is not foolish it can never be, It takes a lot of strength, sometimes all of the strength that is left inside me to choose to be me. But in the end, it is always worth it, and even if is what the world calls a foolish choice, I am ready to be that fool and make the same choice daily, every single day. Every day when I wake up I promise myself that today I am again choosing to be a kind, loving believer who believes the world needs love and kindness more than any other thing. I know that one day everyone will make the same choice when they wake up and that day will come I am so sure about it and it will be the best day of everyone's life. I will heal, I will change of course for the better, but one thing I am sure will never change is the choice which I make to always believe in love😇

Xoxo💖